Metamorph

A Fool’s Journey:

I stood outside the door of the place I had once called home. It was locked. The entire home abandoned and forgotten, literally overgrown with silence. The 5 of Pentacles in the spread a reminder of the past winter winds. I was not enough?  So they thought or might still think, except this time I don’t care.. 

I am back here and I stand on these steps alone this time. I was the chosen one to fail, but here I am wholeheartedly my very self, the forgotten one, the unforgiven. 

Inside my heart, shadows dance like illusions in a mirror. The 7 of Cups showing the Fools endless paths: promises, dreams, those ghosts of the past , trying to vanish futures. But none of them feeling true no more. None offer any warmth.  …the Fool will not crumble.

From within rises a  King of Cups — no more fire, but this only stillness. I won’t silence this momentary sorrow. I will just hold it. I won’t chase for answers now. I am listening to the ache behind the mental noise.

The Fool remembered battles lost — sharp words, broken bonds, silent treatments left to rot like fruit on the ground. 5 of Swords energy, still fresh in my mind despite the time past. A bruise that hadn’t healed. But now can they see? : I won ‘the war’ when I walked away. Yet I am back, home again.  At peace with myself, fire forged not in conquest, but surrender. The flow. 

This chapter of my journey is about rewriting it from scratch — about the escape, the growth, the victory. It’s about staying with myself in the cold, if I have to — because whatever this is, they once began it themselves. They are quiet now, slow, quietly learning how to knock again, watching what they once rejected, once vituperated… metamorphosing into the butterfly they never saw coming.

Reflecting Mantra

This was not just about finding love, or even companionship.

It was about encountering the self in new light — reflected, refracted, made visible through connection.

The Fool learned:

Fate may bring the mirror — but choice determines if you face it.

And courage determines if you walk beside it.